Looking back now I can see she did the best she could.
She survived depression.
She survived anxiety.
She survived neglect.
She survived bankruptcy.
She survived assault.
She survived harassment.
She lost and gained over and over again.
She is a survivor so why do you beat her up?
Why do you call her names?
Why do you compare yourself to her?
Why do you smite her?
Looking back now I can see the pain in her eyes.
I can see the despair and struggle.
I can see the loneliness.
What if she was doing the best she could do at the time?
What if she needs your love and grace?
What if you let her off the hook for her mistakes?
She will never meet your expectations.
She will never be who you dreamed her to be.
She was trying to survive with all her might.
Maybe it is time to let her rest.
Stop looking back on what she could have done better and be thankful she brought you here.
Instead of looking back and saying “she could of” or “she should of” you can say “she survived!”
And choose to do what you can today to live healthier.
Choose soul work.
Choose movement.
Choose creativity.
Choose well balanced.
And when you can not met the expectation give grace, move forward and stop looking back so often.
This is where healing lives.
This is where freedom begins.
This is where you are today.
And if you do these things you will look back in ten years and you will see progress, health, healing, fruit and grace in her eyes instead of contentment and hate.
She did the best she could.
Which means YOU did the best YOU could.
STOP comparing your present day self with your past self.
In the age of before and after photos it is easy to get caught in comparing our past self with our present day self but, what if healing begins when we STOP comparing and start loving?
We can choose to give our past self grace and what if this grace moves us forward into a more loving space?
What if the thing that has been holding us back isn’t about what we could have done but, what we can do today in giving ourselves credit, grace, forgiveness and thanks for surviving the struggle and pain?
Maybe then we can heal on the inside leading to healing on the outside.
