Does anyone really like or enjoy waiting?
My guess would be no.
Impatience and anticipation can be a struggle especially with our culture of convenience and quick fixes.
This morning I was reminded of my friend Renee‘s words to me in a tough session. She said, “what works in one season may not work in another.” I wrote about this in my new book Freestyle Faith but, her words are reigning true even today. I have felt like I have been crawling into 2018 and struggling to find a new rhythm…but, maybe this is a season of waiting and cultivating.
Forget about what’s happened; don’t keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new. It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it? There it is! I’m making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands. –Isaiah 43:18-19 The Message
It can be easy to jump from winter to summer but, then we will miss spring. Spring can begin slowly with lingering cold fronts and ice but, slowly the harvest begins to push through the cold dirt and bring forth signs of new life.
Coming out of a tough season of dealing with my past trauma has brought me to a place of longing for summer sunshine and freedom of play and enjoyment; trying to jump from the hard winter to summer sun is not exactly what my soul needs right now.
Growing means waiting. It means embracing imperfect, grace-filled progress and tending to things over time. It means sitting in the tension of waiting for blooms to come. -Lara Casey
In the waiting I have slowly began getting up early to workout and then enjoying my coffee and quiet time before my family wakes up. I have slowly begun to tap into my creativity via sketching, painting, coloring and writing again. I am beginning to realize what rhythms I need in my daily life for my health and well-being. My goals have begun to shift from picture perfect sized jeans to a healthy well-rounded life (mental, emotional, physical and spiritual).
I am seeing now the slow process of crawling into the new year has not been about failure instead; it has been about growth and cultivating. According to Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary cultivate means to “foster growth and/ or to prepare.” I can see now this slow-moving transition into the new year has been about fostering new growth in my life. The building upon my healing and transition into a new rhythm of wellness.
Three weeks in and I am still figuring out what this new rhythm actually is in my life. Like a caterpillar who just began to fly I am slowly learning to flutter my wings in new and exciting ways. Yes, there are moments of fear and wondering what will come next but, while I wait I am choosing to cultivate.
And I am going to let go of things that may have worked in the past but, do not work for right now. This does not mean I will not go back to those practices instead; it means I am going to relax into this waiting season and learn how to cultivate the things to come in my life.
What season are you in right now?
Do you feel like you are struggling or soaring into the new year?
Either way relax into what God is showing you and be patient with the process. A caterpillar does NOT become a butterfly overnight. There is a process and we need to relax into the transition. Trust and believe in the One who is guiding your path. And take the next small step of faith trusting the process you are in right now.
May His peace surround you and guide you to your next steps my friend!